Regrets

2018

 

Regrets is a performance about visualisation of keeping emotions. In a conversation which I had with my close friend talking about wounds from childhood, we couldn't find a phrase to describe the haunted feeling, this sustained quality of emotion. The understanding of time as linear is an aggressive ongoing idea grows within the society of production. 

"The naked flesh is bound into socially meaningful embodiment through temporal regulation"- Elizabeth Freeman.

 

I was never comfortable to think about regrets, and with time pass by these temporalities in our life in a linear structure is irreversible operates in a way that we need to leave the emotion behind. But the feeling of regret is a sign of mind expecting things can happen differently excluding every variable under the situation of our decisions. We save our narratives and reading through them again with additional pain.

 

The sound comes out while the dots flooding out the drawer. This basic furniture we encounter in our daily life as a figure of a container where we keep things, the letters we didn't send, the gifts we didn't give, the photos we are afraid to look at, like those wounds we wrote down on a paper, suddenly they need to belong somewhere else. And as we grow older, they flood and we might just need to look at them, filter them, reconstruct them and gently put them back.

 

15/10/18@ HKU Loods.